What if I’m living a life that’s worth living?
Today I took Jay and a friend out to go on a long bike ride. They needed my help being their shuttle. I spent the time driving, listening to a podcast, getting into the lake a little bit and buying a wetsuit. It felt good to help them out and also get out a bit.
We spent the evening just hanging out.
I went to a movie last night which felt really good. I am realizing the need for balance, to have weekly art-focused activities, active events, cultural, intellectual, charity, etc. It all balances out and we have to create that in a culture that isn’t really promoting that.
We are far from tribe and fire. I read that recently. I’m glad though in many ways. I’m glad a single, strong man who could be an egomaniac isn’t running the systems around my day-to-day existence. I very much believe in and support rule of law. But we are missing the connection that came more with less wealth and more connection.
We can look with rose-colored glasses to a simpler time or look ahead and figure out how to create community and belonging in a culture that has chosen or been nudged toward isolation. That feels like a hopeful challenge to me, to unpave the parking lot if you will. What a lot of work.
So I enjoyed just hanging w/ Jay and also being not at work.
I’m enjoying being less depressed. I’m feeling more confident to make choices about my own happiness and welfare, picking up things I’m interested in and doing those things.
I bought a wetsuit today. I want to be in water more. I remember the days as a kid of being in water as much as I could. I want to get back to that. It felt like a step in the right direction.
So that’s the big take away today, thankfulness and also happy to be re-engaging life after this long season of depression.
Also the physiatrist today said she doesn’t see the need to see me, that the work I’m doing getting the ProLo shots and work w/ PT is great. She did give me a pillow called a SacralWedgy to lay on regularly and also to take some collagen. So more news for the hopper. Good thing I’m curious.