I worked all day pulling rabbits out of the hat for training the sales people.
I told Jay last night I’m about an hour ahead of everyone, and he agreed. He’s doing the same with the new devs. I just haven’t been able to worry. I’m doing the best I can, and things are falling through the cracks. There’s nothing I can do.
I sense though that God/the universe/the unnameable is on my side. Things are falling into place without me being involved. I’m letting things go but a lot is still going just fine. We have good staff in place, and things are happening that are good. It seems there is energy that is allowing things to fall into place in a timely fashion as best as I can tell.
It helps me be willing to stand down and keep all my systems in calmer order. Yes, calmer and less activated.
I went and saw the movie Downton Abbey this evening. They made a movie out of the series. It was a little slow w/ the climax points being pretty minimal but I guess they were in the series as well.
Whenever I see these English shows, I think about my 86% English heritage. At times I fight it; others I welcome it. Descended from the Washingtons and Jeffersons, the aristocracy of America.
At times, it feels like the skills I have at work were inbred. I certainly didn’t go to school to study them. I wonder how that works w/ your DNA and environmental modeling. I know from my own studies it is both, but how far is that call back on the genetics?
At any rate, I enjoy a good English show, and it sure still does feel incredibly familiar. I do hope I get back across the pond before long. It’s been about five years now I think since the last time we were in Europe. I miss it.
I saw both the PT and the acupuncturist today. The PT feels the scar tissue dissolving could be a final piece of the puzzle. I know I regularly am having pain mostly irritation. Tonight I took more medicine for pain, worked out and took a bath. All those things helped.
So it seems I’m rising from the dead.
I read a wonderful quote today:
Be willing to be a beginner every single morning. - Meister Eckhart
That is so beautiful, so lovely. So much humility, but it opens you to the divine, to the unnameable, without losing your dignity and respect for all you already know.
On a lighter, more serious note, I hate all my clothes and ESPECIALLY my purse RN.
I was having a decent day alright, I run a fucking software company, and if my purse game is gone, baby I got nothing.
You hear me?
This is why men rule the world, and I don’t know how to do a fucking thing about it. My mind literally stops when my stuff isn’t organized well. Forget that balance sheet or my quarterly reports.
I want a new purse.
I literally have no time to shop, and I feel like I need a new wardrobe. The purse is just a nightmare situation. I now carry a water bottle everywhere which messed w/ the purse dynamics.
I’m not sure why all the fuss… is it being a HSP? ADHD? A One? All I know is, the clothing thing fucks w/ your head when you’re trying to be feeling bad ass about your new self.