Just spent about ten minutes texting one of my buddies that has a 9- year old son.
We got to talking about poo and farts because #littlekids
We then started laughing about how our families each handled that topic, with hers being a family that laughed and mine just repressed and ignored.
The weird thing? My Dad farted a lot. So we could have had a lot of fun w/ that if he’d been that kind of person.
It just was one thing after another until we were both crying, barely able to text. “Can’t breathe..! Stop!”
It made me realize how incredibly serious I am about everything still, though am slowly recognizing the huge importance of laughter, of being strong and resilient, of not trying to think through everything, but just chest up to stuff, laugh or deal with it and move on.
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Speaking of that, I have a colonoscopy scheduled for this week on Friday, first one. All this pelvic pain is leading me in that direction.
For once, I am just not really thinking about it. I’m dealing with my pain but just not getting down.
A couple things: Tiger Woods just won the US Open. A few years ago, he was almost unable to move due to his back pain. Today, back at the top of his game. He’s had a very long, slow slide down and a hard crawl back up.
But he did it.
It sounds like it was grueling and not easy. He failed a lot. He failed when he could have been succeeding.
Regardless, now he’s succeeding again.
I especially resonated with his description of being immobile. For some reason, this story resonated out of all the stories you hear of someone that had a hard time and got back up.
I guess there was something about how he’d been successful already, then had huge relationship issues as well as the physical pain and injuries. It wasn’t like the story of someone born with a defect or wounded in a battle. There just was something about his story that hit me with all my emotional and physical issues that have been intertwined and difficult.
I also just realized I want to be stronger and happier. I don’t want to think about what might happen. I have largely been blessed with things getting better. I’ve had a lot of pain and issues, but things got better. I’m believing this will also get resolved.