I am struggling to deal w/ leadership issues within the recovery program I’m a part of.
I’ve spent time this week learning more about being a One and am trying to incorporate that as I pursue options to possibly assist or at least protect myself and our group.
I am reflecting back on the many times this has happened and what I did right and wrong.
In reading about Ones, they go to anger quickly because things aren’t “right.” I’ve realized I can’t act in anger on this. I am trying to shift and let the spirit move in me and allow me to have strength to go to compassion and empathy, not anger.
Anger also clouds my judgement which has happened many times before when I’ve made decisions when angry.
So I’m working on that today.
I’ve also realized that it pays to go slow. Making hasty decisions is rarely a good idea. it’s what we instinctively want to do; we want the fight part of the fight or flight trigger happening in our brain when we feel hurt, slighted or exposed.
Especially when many people are involved, taking it slow helps get better information.
Which leads to my third realization, talking to other people. Get this toxic thing out in the open and get other input from different types of people (who will have different Types than me!)
So I’m not sending out rash, all-group emails. I’m starting to reach out to people in leadership that I’m struggling with, I’m reaching out to older women in our group who’ve seen this before and then will see what might emerge from all that as to what to do next.
I’m learning, and it’s good stuff.