I had two appointments today, one w/ the chiro and one w/ the DO.
Both worked on my pelvis and sore spots as well as all other places that need help. I actually came home and took a nap after the DO visit. Sometimes I can’t tell if he’s doing anything, and then I’m immediately exhausted.
We had our Tiny Might Community meeting tonight, kind of the kick-off for this next year. We’re already on Year Two… amazing. We just got off and running on our second year, just like that. Now I can’t imagine having these folks in my life to just share with.
Tonight we talked about the fact that stronger spiritual leaders we are familiar with in our faith tradition are talking about reconstruction and what that looks like. Deconstruction helps with a certain phase, but then it’s time to rebuild. We’ve all spent a few years wandering around deconstructing and finding a few people here and there that have similar experiences as we do. That’s an important phase and time when you feel quite wounded by the organization and teaching you’re trying to leave behind.
But then, it’s time to build something better. That takes work and thoughtful effort. It takes conversations, planning and trying new things together. I think that’s where we’re at now.
There is a couple that has left church about a year ago, and they have no where to go, no friends not connected w/ their old church. They’re lonely and confused about what’s next. They’re in the desert where we were for many years as well.
So we decided to let them come and try out being with us. It sounds like they really need something. It’d be nice if they could find somewhere to land, and it might be with us. We talked about getting too big or how to even have someone join us. It’s a weird situation to be in as we’ve always had open groups.
*****
One of the group members mentioned that they’re done trying to hire college students to work at his store. He said he had two college girls quit two weeks ago, because they felt the store was unsafe (it’s a thrift store). Because of the area the store is located, sometimes people come into the store who don’t smell great or have messy clothes. That’s what they meant by unsafe.
So yeah, the world is going to be run in 30+ years by kids who now have no ability to handle stress or communicate effectively with each other. It isn’t looking pretty.
There are signs that people are realizing what’s happened and are trying to take steps to correct things. Classes on digital hygiene are popping up, some schools are restricting phones, etc. It still feels overwhelming to me.
It did remind me that resilience is a key ingredient of a balanced and happy life. I need to keep that in mind as I keep growing stronger, adding in more exercise, and in general, just taking the next step and not giving up on dreams of new opportunities for my future.
*****
We had a website meeting today regarding the new site that is up. It has some issues, and I don’t feel it’s better than the old site. However, I realized that’s not my burden to bear any longer. I think I’m providing value with my input, but I’m not leading this project; Jay is. I feel badly he has so much responsibility right now, but I also don’t see any other way around it. It saved our marriage for me to get out.
I’ve been surprised at the depression I’ve struggled with this week, just feeling down about my prospects for the future and the time to even sign up for another class let alone take a class. Resilience in it all.