I'm exploring a wide range of interests and options for possible next career steps.
People keep asking what I'm doing, and I say I'm doing a private blog about my life which sounds like the most pretentious thing someone could possibly do.
I started reading Parker Palmer's book Let Your Life Speak and that's making me feel slightly better. You can't understand your vocation if you don't understand yourself. I'm using my blog as a way to better understand myself, so yeah, good timing.
As a result of this stage in my recovery, the tabs on my browser are holding pages for topics suc as writing programs, human development, coaching, spiritual direction, psychology, the ego, etc. No tabs on trauma, therapeutic modalities, ACE's, and such. I am still focused on that personally, but have enough energy now to do more than survive. I can think about the future.
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Dinner w/ our friend from Sedona who here helping with sales and marketing strategic planning. I guess I don't even fully know how to thank him or respond appropriately. I've grown used to such a hard push for what we have. I guess I assume he'll lose interest and drift away. I'm sad and jaded it appears still, for all the work and change.
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I made plans w/ my mom to do something on Wednesday. She seems better so we'll see how it goes. I wasn't worried about her today. It's nice to not be worrying.