I got some kind of cold or flu this week and have had periodic bouts of exhaustion. Jay said several people at work had it. That made me feel better I guess, instead of another thing wrong with me.
Today's medical appointments included a revisit to the chiropractor and my follow-up mammogram. My left hip still hurts a lot making exercise challenging at times. I guess someday I'll try ProLo to see if that helps. The mammogram was the best news with no need for the follow-up ultrasound regarding the small cysts they found. They seem to have disappeared so just the squeezing routine, not the other as well. Less time, less stress, less money. It was nice to have some good news for a change.
I'm quiet here this evening alone. The effects of the EMDR seem significant. I don't feel anxious this evening like I often do when I don't have anything planned. I can't believe that, really. I could get used to that.
Kay also said to be sure and take time off, to not always be working. I feel responsible to keep figuring out what it is that's coming next. She said it'd be okay to not always be doing that, to watch a movie and relax.
So this evening, no chores and just trying to keep that in mind. I feel like it's been a gift to have these options to move into change.
A few fun texts and conversations with the kids have been grounding and confirming what they need from us right now. The stronger I become, the more clear that seems.
What would it be like to not have low-grade anxiety about everything all the time? I feel like yesterday's session could be one of the most significant I've ever had.