I've struggled as an adult to fully understand how to live life.
I live in the opposite of a tribe, especially in regards to our country and culture.
We've tried to create a feeling of connection and community with close friends and family. Depending on your perspective, we've succeeded or still live as islands in the sea of humanity.
What is right? often swirls in my mind. What is healthy? What is best? What is good for the earth? What do humans really need to thrive? How are we supposed to be on this planet that we share with so many other plants and animals?
These thoughts often paralyze me. My only solution so far has been to take things one at a time in a slow move toward being more healthy ecologically, relationally, healthfully.
So what do I usually want to do on a Friday night? I live in a time and place where I get to decide. I feel pressure from society to do more and be cooler, that's for sure.
What I often end up picking is reading a good book, listening to Hawaiian music, maybe having dinner with friends, a fire, puppers on the couch with me, hubs nearby.
As I write this, I realize this is enough. As I become more in touch with myself, I'm learning to identify things I should truly be doing and things that just feel like societal pressure. I fully realize how short life is. I don't want to waste my life, my time, on things that aren't real, aren't enriching and meaningful. That doesn't have to be serious and somber. It also often involves not having my life revolve around me.
More to come.