Yesterday we drove to Moscow and had our first marriage counseling session in about two years.
I felt relieved. I felt encouraged and supported. It clarified what the struggles have been. I felt more encouraged than I've been before.
I had almost forgotten that we saw the counselor in Seattle for several sessions. We even had her come to Spokane for a session with the staff. We had several sessions by phone. I hardly remember any of it.
I need to clarify what it is that are some minimal things that I'd like to get out of this. What am I expecting? What do I want out of this marriage?
I started reading the book Rewire your Brain for Love by Marsha Lucas. Kay recommended we read it. It's about your brain, attachment and changing patterns for greater life/marital health.
Where does forgiveness fall into this? I just read an article on Little Buddha about continuing in a relationship with someone that has hurt you. There were good suggestions on how to do that. These things are in play as we work through issues.
It feels significant that we keep moving forward. I won't give up.