It came.
It went.
It was successful.
We pulled off another major holiday complete with presents, home cooking and all kinds of people together that no longer live together.
We had fun and people enjoyed the presents. The food was good here and at our our larger gathering.
My step-sister and her husband hosted us all, and that’s a good thing and we don’t have room anywhere else anymore. Our house is too small… hurray! I don’t like hosting that big of a group.
I did get triggered Christmas Eve day and that lasted into Christmas Day, but not as bad.
We survived and maybe that’s enough. These aren’t easy things to understand and navigate.
I am beginning to think that my illusion of a better family is sort of that. We are doing pretty well with our small family of five now and some new in-law type people.
Baby steps.
I look at photos of my friend’s families, and this generation had the opportunity to do things a little differently than our parents.
I’m grateful to people who made efforts to push our consciousness forward and give us all the tools we needed to do better.
Surviving and semi-thriving.