I don’t want to be this triggered. I want to believe things are new.
I don’t want to be this distracted by emotions and things pulling me here and there.
I think men get ahead that way; they just are less concerned w/ emotions.
It’d feel really good to be less connected and attached.
I don’t want to be obsessed w/ what Jay does and who he sees. He’s committed to me and we’re improving. I need to let things be. I need to get on with my life and be committed to my marriage and this person, but it’s time for me also to let life continue and unfold and change and expand.