We leave our beach haven today and head north to see other friends in northern LA.
These friends are renting an amazing home on the beach and have lovely beach and Native American themed art all around the house. Jay made the comment yesterday that their art is their home. They have moved alot and it goes with them, cementing their lives in all seasons. It’s an incredible sentiment and so true. I love it.
Jay said, “When are we getting art up on our walls? What IS our art?” He wants me to get my photos up, my art, and stop buying stuff that also doesn’t go up on the walls.
I’ve been shut down in the area of creativity for so, so long. It’s exciting to think that this next 30 years of marriage or life will have art and creativity in it again.
I’ve been a little sad as I watch our friends and wish our lives had more of the positive energy they have in it. My friend has been more disciplined than I have and more focused on a high-paying career that has served their interests well.
I’ve been frozen and focused on growing our family and company.
I was thinking back though on when they first came to the same community meetings we used to have. They were more aloof and focused on travel and other things. She has said that we helped them in many ways, I guess some I don’t even understand. So instead of beating myself up, I need to remember that and remember how we nurtured and helped them heal while they were in our hometown. I’ve had other people say that recently, that our lifestyle and how we lived helped give them a new trajectory.
I need to own that and wonder how to do that again. I guess we’re still living in community to some degree w/ the newer, younger couples we end up having over for meals and just to hang out and have fun and do poetry and artsy things. I need to explore that and realize how important it is. So yeah, maybe have art and poetry nights w/ them and see what happens. That’d be cool.
So I guess I’d love to be here more for sure, but most of our friends are still in our hometown and we can do wonderful work there that would be life-giving to me w/ a long-term plan to get back to the beach more and maybe even something permanent someday. How amazing that would be. I feel so light here. It’s dangerous though with it also being a vacation and there is energy there that isn’t anywhere you live permanently I guess though I don’t think all places you live and work are equal. So I’m not going to say the only reason I love it here is because I’m on vacation.