I worked almost all day at the office today.
I’m back helping with training the new inside sales people and mainly coordinating the info flow regarding their training.
It’s a bit overwhelming but I’m up for it.
I also am trying to get the plaques up on the walls for our client logos and a bunch of other things.
A friend wants to put my photos up in her husband’s waiting room. That’s crazy! Not ready for this yet but it’s coming.
The Amazon is burning thanks to the Trump of Brazil letting it get clear cut for agriculture and resource extraction.
Today I def feel depressed and blue to some degree.
I feel pretty lame in saying this but I am def lacking passion and purpose in my life.
I am amazed that we have this business that pays our bills and health care especially. I will support it and have some boring days and just days to do it because it’s paying for our life.
I am hopeful we can do more things in the evenings and I need to start signing up for things again. I have tried to meet new people but it’s kind of hard to do. I’m hoping to get to things where I can meet more people with some likeminded interests. I probably could do that with fundraising or volunteering in places where I’d meet more likeminded folks.
The big news though is continued work on accepting my life as it is and even finding joy in the moments. It really is a choice. It really is.
It was disappointing today to have another quick dinner out and then figure we’d head home like at 7. Yawn. So I suggested we rent scooters and then I also stopped by the park concert. Jay is worn out every day and I wonder if he’ll ever do more than what we’re doing. I know he wants to; I am eager to get out more.
However, instead of coming home angry and pouting, I was able to appreciate him and be kind to him like he so often is with me when we disagree. I didn’t blame him and just said it was more on me to make more community happen for me that works.
That felt really healthy and I feel better this eve even though this lingering issue is still there.
I think I’ve just lived too much of my life away from things that give me energy. It’s just how it’s worked out and I am now in a place to do more about it.
It’s not Jay’s fault; he’s done amazing at keeping our business functional and I’m glad to help right now. I just hope I can keep staying positive and going in better directions w/ different connections.
My pain is better than yesterday but still coming and going. I don’t understand all that’s going on and why it’s still painful in my pelvis but I’m just trying to make changes and see what happens.