PIPER SMALL IS A BLOGGER/WRITER BASED IN THE WESTERN UNITED STATES.

SHE IS MOST INTERESTED IN TOPICS RELATED TO THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE IN MODERN LIFE, FAMILY, COMMUNITY, NATURE, SPIRITUAL PRACTICES, DEPRESSION AND PTSD.

SHE TRIES TO DO ALL THIS WITH AS MUCH HUMOR AS POSSIBLE. 

Diagnosis

I finally have a solid diagnosis for my pelvic issues.

In addition to twenty years of endometriosis that came to an end in 2008 with my hysterectomy, I also have Levator ani syndrome. Muscles are in spasm constantly and don’t relax. The symptoms describe exactly what my pain feels like.

There are definitely options for treatment if I can just get out of this current flare.

I am so numb today, it’s hard to feel excited. I’m just so exhausted. I started crying today during my visit w/ the PT gal I see. She said, “This is a good place to cry.”

She talked about how stomach upsets really trigger these muscles as well as stress. I had a GI issue for two weeks after I stupidly ate the raw morel mushrooms. Then the stress of bio mom. So yeah. I also had stopped doing Kegels because I’ve been doing yoga, and I shouldn’t have done that. In fact, there are specific exercises for this syndrome that I need to be doing more of.

She also said she feels I’m handling my emotions better that I used to, and that will make a difference. She’s been seeing me for like eight years so that’s a neat perspective.

So I feel positive and hopeful about the future with some options and exercises to consider. I hope to get some additional medicine that will help muscles relax.

I need to eat dinner then go to bed early.

I am grateful for these amazing providers around me and the hope of a better future for my body. I’m glad I’m not super depressed; I’m weary of the intense, relentless pain.

This Week

Thoughts on Stress