It is strange to be in pain w/o the panic and anger and deep spiraling despair.
I saw the doctor today. She had a cancellation and I slipped in.
I guess I have hemorrhoids. I am in a lot of pain. I also have interstitial cystitis. Then there is the spot scar tissue, tightness, etc.
Fortunately the spot is better. My hips are loosening up. I hope that continues to improve.
I don’t know why I have the hemorrhoids other than sitting. I guess I won’t go into details but it’s a mystery to me what’s going on.
I guess I just wanted to comment on the lack of panic, despair and anger. I believe the therapy and the deep down healing has made a huge difference. I think the Omega 3’s are helping too. It’s a game-changer when you’re not in a depression and anxiety death spiral when you’re sick or in pain.
I hope the pain eases up. I don’t have many pain pills. I can’t really take any.
A few texted a photo of their daughter today who was playing in the waves. She said, “It’s like anything God made is him. It’s like God is the ocean.” Then my friend commented that she said it sounded like her daughter had been listening to Rohr ;)
People are growing and changing and sensing God is the ways God has always existed , but we restricted.
One nice thing about the lack of anger, despair, anxiety, depression etc. is I can keep doing things and getting things done. I am becoming resilient.
Lastly, this friend’s daughter is the third and last child. She has a very different demeanor than the oldest especially.
There really is something to birth order affecting your personality and posture.
It convicted me on being the oldest and first born, like, how serious and responsible to you really fucking need to be??