What a roller coaster are these bigger life situations we get ourselves in as adults.
My parents have landed at their retirement community. My mom seems elated to be somewhere new with more people and better food. I imagine eventually there will be issues there w/ her paranoia, (“Don’t eat the apples; they’re poisoned”), but I’ll enjoy it for now.
The last two days weren’t great with the flatness. I was honest about it with a few people and at AlAnon. Everyone said to give it time and let myself grieve.
What was also in the back of my mind was the reality of just being tired. I’m not sleeping as well and as long due to the sunlight in the mornings. I also am just weary and feeling the weight of it all. The acronym HALT came to mind:
H- Hungry
A- Angry
L- Lonely
T- Tired
Ask yourself if you are in one of these states and deal with it.
So last night I decided to sleep in today and not get up for the early yoga class. I slept until 9.
I feel entirely different today. I energy and some uplift in the soul. I don’t feel like sleeping. I’m ready again to get projects done and am happy to be alive and able to work.
I have energy for my school work and all manner of things. I’m working on the coffee shop show project also.
I know I’ll be tired tonight, but that’s what everyone goes through.
I’m doing housework, school, errands and taking care of mom’s bills.
So just a good reminder of what I used to do when my kids cried before they could talk. Check all the basics w/ your body and don’t assume it’s all in your mind/brain organ. Listen to your body and be okay with it all.
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I’m making plans for summer projects and for school. I’m hoping to do a poetry class w/ Billy Collins online and be ready for a writing program of some kind this fall. I need to work on that.
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Ended day w/ a lot of energy. Had video call w/ the kids and discussed their desire to buy a house. Did many tasks all day but tried to not burn out on having some energy whereas yesterday and last several days, have only wanted to nap at least once a day and also felt flat.
I’m glad things are overall on a good trend.