Does anyone else think about these things?
Creating a way of living in a culture you don’t identify with? Wondering about the true wisdom of the world while much of what’s spinning around you is just noise?
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I started my photography class today. I am in way over my head, but I’m hopeful with a lot of time and effort, I’ll not make a fool of myself and learn a good deal. It seems significant, but today, it felt like any other day. I spilled a lot of water in my bag while driving to school, and it didn’t even faze me.
I’m tired. I feel like I’m getting sick with a cold or something. I don’t feel like exercising. I just want to rest and sleep. I ordered more furniture for the office today and missed a doctor’s visit. Typical day I guess.
I’ve thought some about therapy yesterday but mostly just tired.
Tonight I felt like coming home and having sex. That’s a nice change. I hope it continues.
My spot hurts some tonight, mostly because my stomach/gut is a little upset, and that’s a common response. I also haven’t been doing my Foundation exercises.
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I have a tendency to be lazy. i’ve finally accepted that. I’m glad I have some practices in place to keep that a little bit in check at least. I get a lot done and most probably wouldn’t say that about me. I don’t have the discipline that Jay and El have.