I’m pretty focused on the wedding. Definitely have other responsibilities, but that’s the main focus either be it chores directly related to the wedding itself or getting the house ready.
We headed to Klinks for dinner down on Williams Lake. It’s always so nice to get out and drive. They’ve built a new deck and the food it still consistently amazing.
We also had a staff lunch today which is always fun.
T-9 days and counting.
I’m excited about the wedding, but I also don’t fully know what to expect, emotionally, I guess. It feels exciting and awesome and like a giant party, but also a lot of work and then my daughter is getting married. That’s not something I have a solid frame of reference for in terms of emotions. I have emotions for when they left for college and then later got jobs. Those seem like the closest in terms of the leaving part.
But then, there’s the celebration part, the new life partner and new life experiences part. That feels more like feelings around seeing them accomplish things and stretch their wings. Those are rich feelings of satifaction and happiness for them.
So it’s a mix right now and maybe it’ll be a mix then as well? I’m thinking the day itself will be very fun, for the most part. That’s what I’m expecting. It’s very well-organized thanks to KT and a bit of credit to myself, so I won’t be scrambling I don’t think.
Getting the house ready hasn’t been insignificant. My depression has lasted over two years now, and things are just okay on the house front in terms of being really ready for guests for several days. I also have wanted to get the garden in and am behind schedule on that. So there are some colliding timelines that are putting the pressure on right now. I’m trying to manage my own expectations (no one cares what color the bathroom walls are) and just get the basics done and be ready.