Another drive down into the earth for healing.
We had a meeting this morning on the website. I actually went. I started off believing it wouldn't go well. I read the text I sent later. It was somewhat condescending and patronizing. "Do you have your shit together enough to have this meeting?" was the basic subtext of my comments.
I started to think differently about it after I sent the text. What if things aren't as bad as I think? What about the fact that we have a new website, that Jay single-handedly is driving that to happen, however it is starting out of the gate.
I calmed down and was able to come and listen, make a few comments and just be present w/o an attitude.
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"When you see a behavior in yourself you don't like, pay attention. It's coming from your sub-conscience which reflects your beliefs, in this case, false beliefs. Discover what is the actual belief in that situation then focus on that."
More gems from my time w/ Kay. Worth it.
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Drove home listening to Macklemore and dreaming about buying cool clothes and looking flossy. Talked to a buddy about all the stuff happening in the family, and she really encouraged me in all the hard work.