I just started listening to the opening of the Conspire 2018 put on by the Center for Action and Contemplation.
My oh my.
Not mincing words and have been waiting for these kinds of events I think my whole life.
He talks about how people who hear what they have to say say things like this, they've known it all along.
God is not "out there."
Beware the imperial ego seeking to be on top.
Literal interpretation of any book of literature is the lowest form of consciousness.
Matter wants to be God. Spirit wants to incarnate.
Unity, not uniformity and conformity.
How have they known it? How have I known it? How have I known what the Jesus story was supposed to mean for all of us? That hiding and seeking the top protects the ego and keeps us from reaching others, including ourselves, who are searching for actual, real healing.
I was watching a sunset the other night and I felt calm. I felt like this is enough. I didn't feel that low-level anxiety that has haunted me my whole life. The "what's next" anxiety. The sense that something else is happening that I should be part of or doing.
It seems this is the time to be cementing that in as my new normal. I occasionally am concerned about my pace of life, but then I think of what i'm trying to undo.
It's a good way to end the week, back to where it all begins, with friends, our neighbors, that have helped us on this journey.
*****
Jay is pretty exhausted. Last night we talked, and I got a little triggered. Today I realized this isn't anything important, I need to let it go. And I did.
It's amazing what happens when I contribute healing and change to a situation I'd like to believe is only someone else's fault.
*****
The people I reached out to regarding conversations have both responded. I feel positive about the conversations, like I don't have anything to lose and I'm not trying to hurt them or prove anything. We'll see how it goes. It feels like a good stretching experience.