Therapy yesterday covered a way to hear and connect more to your True Self which is God in us.
She started by asking me to think about how it feels to know your own "yes" and "no." Have this daily practice:
Hold something in your mind’s eye
Say, "It’s important for me to do X; do I get a 'yes' or 'no' feeling?"
What does that mean?
Yes; feel a sense of ease/peace
No; tight, anxiety in chest
This is how to get your higher self to guide you. By listening to your "yes" and "no's", you're hearing your higher self speaking and bypassing your ego. This reminds me of the spirits of desolation and consolation that Ignatius wrote about.
We have always have been worthy of love. I am loved, crossed the river, on the other side. What's the fear of believing that? What bad thing would happen if we all believed we were loved?
We are all light but don’t know it.
Activate the light.
Those covered in a lot of tar, you want out of your orbit.
They’re responsible for their own journey.
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As I listened to this, took notes, I thought about how I don't know that I feel much better than the people leaving. Maybe we're the problem. I don't want to believe that, but I don't feel healthy either. It all feels like a mess. We're a mess, they're a mess.
At least they are leaving, and we still have some kind of chance to make things better here and in our marriage.
I also realized again, like earlier this week, it will be hard to keep growing and have this negativity in my life. They are incompatible. Either I have to begin viewing this all differently, or something significant has to shift and change. It feels like a war inside, and I don't sense I need to just change my perspective.
A change in attitude could help me navigate more healthfully, but the core situation remains impossible, needing change.