Another drive to Moscow.
We processed the ongoing energy of managing my Mom's health and situation. We processed the trip and hike.
Jay snored the first night as he normally does up there. It gets worse as the week goes on. The first night, I laid there after having already woken him twice. I remember thinking, I don't want to be angry.
I chewed on that for quite a while. What would it be like to not get angry? What would it be like to just let it go tonight and problem-solve tomorrow?
I got out of bed and nudged him once more. You're snoring. Then I walked toward the stairwell.
As I was going downstairs, the formed thought came into my mind: Love everyone.
That sealed the deal. I just let it all go. I didn't have any answers. I didn't know if it would get resolved. I just let it go. Kay says when you're open like I was, God can drop things in. God is always there.
I ended up taking some medicine myself to help my hip. I stayed up a while, looked at the moon and read some. Mainly, I rested and reveled in not being angry.
The same thing happened the next night. This time, I decided to sleep downstairs when I woke up.
The next morning, we talked some about what to do. I remembered I had my decongestant along for my ear. It ended up solving the problem the next two nights, and I also didn't get angry.
Kay today said that long-term cortisol release does have consequences on your body. I pondered it could be what has made me tired on and off all these years. She agreed. I hiked and hiked each day, no naps for the most part.
I listened the Macklemore on the drive home and took a chair nap. I'm tired tonight. I have appointments for stuff with Mom the next few days then off to help my aunt.
Overall, I keep improving. I hope I feel full confidence one of these days especially about my creative interests.