We're settled in Renton in a nice hotel. Jay had a business meeting this morning with a large health system. Two staff flew in, one from the Midwest and another from our office. We talked strategy before the meeting then they were off.
I started to meditate and try and center after getting back to the room. When I started meditating, my mind got super busy of course. I restarted my Headspace session a few times then just shut it off.
I decided to just sit back and observe the kind of thoughts I was having, sort of give them their day. What was going to distract me today? Let's get this over with.
Ah yes, that contentious meeting the other night... not sure how to handle that. Do I call a few people, talk to someone? The kids, yes, now El's leg is hurting again and she can't hang out tonight. KT sounded a little stressed the other night. Jay's meeting, my future plans, fading but still present, the parents.
There it all is. I imagined myself just going down a street and seeing it all pop in front of me. Then I imagined my True Self on the other side of the street, waiting and also watching all these thoughts. I imagined that if we joined together, we could figure out what to do about it all and at the very least, be a lot happier as we corralled it all.
I looked at the thoughts and much of it was negative. My concerns, mostly about people and situations, what to do to help or what's best. Some of it is what is my role in it all. Some of it is just genuine concern about other people. Some of it I can let go as not being my business and some I need to decide if I need to do something.
NONE of it was urgent. None of it needed my full attention immediately. Everything can be delayed especially when it comes to me needing some time to myself to get centered and present.
I'd like to be more centered in my True Self each day to give me more strength to deal w/ the noise that comes along.
I'd also like to more quickly identify what's coming my way, the type of thought or feeling, categorize it and deal with it either immediately or have a plan. I was pondering that before Jay came home. What groupings would they be in? Ignatius grouped things in spirits, consolation and desolation. It's obvious many of them had to do with stress and what I should do to make it better. Much to consider here.
We rented an electric boat tonight on Lake Union. I enjoyed it immensely. Kids and kid's friends and us. Just the kind of thing I enjoy. Good food and drink, being outside, natural beauty, people. Perfect evening and end to the day.