Life at work will be chaotic as the senior leader exits. I am not present as much. I don't know how this will affect us, but we will weather it together, somehow.
I am beginning to realize that I have misjudged Jay. He has had his issues that he is slowly addressing. I have not seen much of the mishandling the other staff have been doing. What even would be a normal staff environment for our business?
We took another senior leader, his partner, out to dinner with her husband. Will she stay and how does she feel about this change?
My mental health seems to be improving. I feel curious again. I am interested in a lot of things and interested in learning about a lot of things. Politics, business, science, people, art, poetry, writing.
I feel less compulsive. I didn’t feel the need to collect a ton of things. I am letting those moments present themselves and not force them to happen. I used to force the memory and go buy pins. I enjoyed it for a long time then it became a burden. This time, I just let whatever happen, happen. I found some great rocks on the beach in Encinitas and then some eucalyptus seed pods at a farmer’s market. It just happened. I would have been fine going home w/o those things as well. That is new.
I joined the Y and am ready to stay more active. It felt good, familiar, to walk through those doors. This is what healthy people do. I wonder what it will feel like to be active again.
Onward, with the crazy journey.