This was a week that needed to end.
I made the trek out north to my Mom's for her birthday. I brought breakfast and presents. It takes 45 minutes to get there from here. I hope they stay safe driving in this weather.
I also had a mammogram, sort of how I feel about life a bit right now. Yeah, just squeeze and fuck all this. Again, grateful for good healthcare.
Tonight, went out with some friends. We are all feeling raw. One friend doesn't have a job still after ten years of on/off employment. He seems angry and for some reason, finds satisfaction in Reformation theology. I guess God loves me because things really suck.
We feel down often with what we're going through, especially right now as February will be an emptying out of senior leaders. Parties for all though when they leave. Why do we do this?
#toonice
Over 15 years ago, somewhere downtown I was walking along, fretting about our business. Out of the blue, I heard God say in my mind, “Let me run your business.”
Now I understand that even more. I understand that more to mean, Stop trying to figure everything out all the time. I am handling things. I am changing people. Do your small part and that’s it. I'm here, running the show.
There are theological questions all over that, but you either believe the basic part of that or you don't. You believe God is involved or not. I will and I do, just like a marriage.
Some days I don't feel it or see it. Doesn't matter. The act of believing can continue to relieve me of the need to fix and change everything, all the time, right now.
Things are heating up before they will cool off. I'm grateful I'm willing for Jay to no longer be the villain and for me to no longer be the victim.