This has been a week of responsibility and reawakening.
I returned from a week away and immediately got to work on laundry and unpacking. I didn't let things slide or sit. I was on top of work and a lot of chores around the house including new ideas and old projects.
We closed the week out with drinks at the El Que, one of my favs and got ready to head out of town.
I'm slowly accepting what it takes to be mentally and physically healthy. I'm not beating myself up for not figuring things out sooner; I'm just grateful for all the people along the way who've helped and supported me.
My life reads like a list of symptoms of childhood trauma. I used to find it triggering; now I take it as a challenge.
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A friend sent me a card from Alaska today. She's working as a counselor up there and growing and discovering herself spiritually as well. She said her big word right now is "notice." Notice how you're feeling. Notice how you're reacting. Notice why you did that impulsive thing.
No judgment but also, awareness. She said it's been one of the most helpful things in her journey of mindfulness. It reminds me of something a DBT counselor told me once, be curious. When you don't understand someone, yourself or a situation, try and suspend judgement at least a few minutes and be curious instead.
I have wise, wise friends who traveling the same dusty, rocky paths I am and that makes me deeply grateful :)