We’re in Seattle to see the beauties. Drove over w/ my mom-in-law who has to be one of the easiest people ever to travel with. It’s El’s bday weekend.
It reminded me of the many trips we all did together. She’s set a good example for me in so many ways. She’s had a rough week and was glad to get out of town, not have to drive or think about getting around. Made me happy we could do that for her.
I have my angsts that come when I’m in Seattle. I’m not super connected to the girls is one. The other consistent voice is I’m being left behind.
Speaking of behinds, today I didn’t have to take any meds. I’ve been doing Kegels again and also did some reflexology on my feet. Not sure which one was the key but have more energy today than I’ve had in a long time and that coming off a 48-hour whirlwind trip to AZ. It feels amazing to be pain-free. It’s been over a month since this last flare hit hard.
I feel I’m finally getting the answers I need, most recently with the PT person last Monday. She brought it all together.
I try and keep putting things out to God that I’m listening and waiting, wondering what’s next for me. I’m trying to take small steps forward as well. I’m not drowning, and I don’t feel despair. I just wonder, what’s next.
We drove near to KT’s old apartment, and I felt a wave of nostalgia. Those were good days too, visiting her and staying in touch while she moved out on her own after college. I’m so proud of her. They’ve worked hard and still work hard. She’s happy though and thriving. I wish more people could experience what that feels like. One of the big paradoxes of life: feeling good usually involves an element of hard work and purpose somewhere along the way.
So I keep trying and am very glad at least I’m not depressed while over here. I think we’ll have fun tomorrow, and I’m glad to be here.