Today was Thanksgiving.
We spent it with KT’s hubs parents and his sister at their house. It was fun and relaxing and full of great food and puzzles and football and the game at the end.
I was pretty anxious in the morning at home. I was mostly worried about wondering if we’ll stay relevant to the kids as we’re farther away, they continue to expand their own lives, etc. Cooking together will also always trigger me.
We got through it though, I cried enough in the am and in the car to get it out of my system and then chill out.
This morning we were listening to music while we were cooking. I felt a warm feeling and realized how much I miss music and art. I keep trying to figure out what’s missing in my life. It’s complicated and also super simple.
I overthink things and don’t engage basic things. I overthink and overworry about what to do next.
However today I felt a lot less anxious about being with the entire family. I was so uptight this summer about all this. I also was anxious about mom last week and who knows what happened today.
I do feel like both Jay and I are under the window however.
That hit me hard yesterday and today.
We do need more activity and fun and engagement with people and groups.
We can’t depend on just our kids even if they were around.
Slogans that make a lot of sense and are helping:
- Thick skin
- Save the outrage
It’s been awesome to stay with the kids at their new house.
I’m pretty grateful. They have a house and are happy. It feels pretty amazing.