Tonight, I feel kind of gross.
I had a flu shot today and for once I realized, I just had a flu shot.
I’m going to feel sortof shitty like everyone else does.
I’m not really sick like more shit; just normal sick.
I’m watching the latest episodes of Queer Eye and love this show so much. Love it.
This episode talks about a guy from Croatia and he has homemade pickles in his bar. He’s 65 and living in a time capsule and like many, works too much and doesn’t pay attention to himself.
Tonight as I was pondering feeling gross, I thought, “I can do anything.” I didn’t feel depressed about not knowing what I’m going to do. I’m excited about what’s next. It’ll happen. I can do anything. I am super skilled and more need to narrow it down.
I can get new clothes.
I can start a new career.
I can deal w/ our house and whatever the hell we’re going to do.
I can start making art.
I could start meeting people I am curious about.
I can keep loving my hometown and the people I know here while pursuing new things.
I don’t know that I’ve ever felt like this. My mind is uncoiling and it’s time to start writing about it, making art and still helping keep our business going.
Lots of exciting things and I keep feeling good about my parents and their move.
I’m accomplishing a lot at work and so is Jay. I am glad it’s going to start getting better, but it’s a lot. I hope it settles down. Jay works too much.
I will move to other things, and I hope we don’t lose people and keep it under control. He’s an 8 and really pushes people.
It’ll happen.
I want to go to NYC.
I want to go to Iceland.
I want to get some new clothes.
I want to get our house redesigned.
I want to create new circles of friends and help others. I need new connections and groups that fit who I am today.
It’ll happen!!