I met w/ Kay today and we talked about listening to your own light, to your source and soul.
We talked about transitions and not needing an external locus of control, but one that is internal.
I told her about not wanting to have a journal anymore, that I’ve grown beyond it. She said to not overanalyze that, to let it be something I enjoyed a lot for many years and now, it’s time is over. Just let it be what it was. Sure, maybe it was something that gave you some order in the chaos, helped you feel good about the amazing things you were doing now, after the chaos of childhood that was so squelched and represed. Now you can embrace not needing to record those things and just enjoy them. But for this other season, you found something you enjoyed that gave you joy. That’s what it was. Let it be that and not make it bad as you transition.
Transcend and include -Ken Wilbur
So yeah, looking at this new book I bought on Perennial Wisdom and remembering the weird vibe I got reading it. We talked about how my soul and God and my guides were saying, stop reading that. Just stop reading in general. Start listening to us, to yourself. I tried to understand why I was so turned off and she said it doesn’t matter. I sensed it was very masculine and didn’t include much earth energy. It was more head stuff and less body and experience. That, and it’s just another book with more thoughts and less body.
I went downtown and bought a used boom box later and then found a book in a restaurant that had a take-home library. It’s main character has PTSD.
So any question on what to direct my energies to now, away from booky-books and more toward art and my soul.
I think it’ll be time for me to do quite a bit of housecleaning with books. I’m ready to be lighter and listen more to my soul.