So, another bad flare.
I’d been doing so great all summer after the muscle release stuff.
I think this is related more to possible internal stuff and not just muscles. Either way, hard to sit and lots of pain.
I’m not panicking which is nice but taking a lot of pain meds which I don’t like but better than raw pain.
I spent the afternoon working at the office, cleaning out my office and other offices in preparation for the move. I’m going office to office and going to start clearing things out and essentially grinding it all down to where when we move, we know what we’re facing.
It is weird to go through all of my work papers and files. I’m saving quite a bit because I mainly don’t want to lose a record of all I accomplished and what it took, year after year. I especially want to hang onto the papers I used for my task management on a daily basis. It really kept me on-task and really helped me get things done across an incredibly broad spectrum of projects. The tools I developed were simple, but ensured I always could see all that was on my plate. Each project was broken into smaller tasks and it worked well.
So, I’m laying here on the couch w/ my ass on fire, minimally dulled by the pain meds. I’m grateful for the slow recovery that’s allowed me to keep getting healthier. I get discouraged to some degree w/ setbacks, but I have a lot to be grateful for, more than not. It has been good to have a change of attitude about it all.
I also visited the new space this morning, and it looks pretty impressive. I find it fascinating that this new space is coming together as Jay and I are really turning the corner on being healthier. I find it symbolic and fitting that it’s happening now, when we can appreciate and enjoy it.
I feel grateful and am glad for where we’re at and where we’re going.
We almost didn’t make it.
But we did.
*****
On a trivial by comparison note, the linen closet it done. El wanted one set of embroidered pillowcases from my grandma, and I kept two other sets. They are really beautiful, and they’re actually almost more beautiful because I only have two sets now.
I believe a beautiful thing about minimalism is it allows you to focus on beauty and not quantity. It’s, “Look at this incredible lace on this one pillowcase,” instead of drowning in mismatched linens, unable to let go of anything and just being overwhelmed.
Queen and single sheet sets are all together, towels and pillowcases are tidy and in stacks. It’s really quite beautiful! I know exactly what we’d do if we had company and if I need to change sheets before I have time to wash the ones that are dirty.
Tidy feels good!