The feeling of elation continues.
This is what it feels like to have an event that you want to keep celebrating. I don't want to let it go.
My auntie from San Francisco left today at 2:30. We had brunch beforehand and some time down by the river. She loved the view and the food at Central Food.
She reads extensively, and is always so interesting to talk to. She isn't arrogant about her knowledge, just confident. Our conversations have depth and substance. I appreciate that, and it sets a good bar for me to follow. I tend to defer to safer topics that end up being lighter I guess.
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The rest of the day was spent assessing what needs to be done to unbury the house from the wedding remainders. Our living room and patio were the staging areas for the wedding supplies and now are filled back up again. Not sure where to start first but it's not horrible. It'll be done probably in a week.
In fact, I want to relish it. I don't want to rush. I want to treat this all as part of the celebration, to reflect and contemplate.
That alone feels different about my life now. I'm making decisions about what I want as life unfolds, not a drive I don't understand, a compulsion.
This isn't the same as laziness. This is living my life in the moment. I just spent weeks and months preparing in a very disciplined fashion for an important family event for my daughter, for her husband, for our families, our friends. I want to continue feeling that, continue reflecting on what all that was and still is.
Culturally, celebrations such as these could go on for days and weeks. We're so damn oriented toward efficiency and work; we don't know when it's time to slow down after the work.
This is one of those times.
The list that's emerging looks like a lot of laundry, putting things back that are mine, slowly creating a pile that'll go to Seattle, a few returns, thank you notes, then on with our own house projects and life again.
What an amazing celebration. I've never experienced anything like that in my lifetime. Definitely a new high and a new limit experience, as they say. So much to absorb and ponder... ah yes!