Tension at work with meetings to determine future direction and projects. There exists substantial conflict between managers and Jay. I don't know who or what to believe anymore. All of this contributes to my ongoing sense of hopelessness. The problems loom too large and seem insurmountable, unsolvable.
It feels like it's all quite dysfunctional and in the end, I know who owns the company and who suffers the most when things are hard. It's not the managers; it's us, it's Jay.
There are days when working together feels sick. I feel sick leaving work. I want to shut off my mind and try and just shake off or clear the energy from my body. I know it doesn't matter though because it just keeps going.